Happy Father's Day to who ever in the world is a father.

Well I'm finally over this summer flu bull shit I have been dealing with, I spent a few days with a fever and a bloody nose it was not fun. I miss working out!!! I'm going to catch up on some working out tomorrow, hopefully go run some miles :D

Today I went to my grandparents. It was actually nice to go over there, the only person missing today for Father's Day... was my Father... hahaha. I don't really care though It's his day not mine. I found out that my Grandpa Percy was in the Army.. I never ever knew that. It was like the first time ever that we ever talked about something real. It was really cool. I actually feel like he's going to be proud of me and pay attention to me cause of this. He was a cytologist, which is like uncovering and making secret codes for the government. I wasn't expecting that outta him at all. I think that's pretty bad ass. He decorated the house in congratulations and American Flags that made me really happy. My family stood and said a prayer for me and then we started singing God Bless America with our fists together in a circle it was hilarious!

Today Cherrish called me up as well and said she wants to sign up for the Army Tuesday I was like alright I'll take you down there and get you all set up. I think it's going to be a good thing for that girl. I have known her for a long time and she is just so all over the place.. and just never seems happy or confident. I think this will be a great thing for her. She was funny she said that no matter what I'm defiantly one of her greatest friends.. she's right no matter how many times that girl pisses me off I'm still right there for her.

Played a show at Transitions Thursday night. It went pretty well i think. It was at a ska pizza party, and we played an AFI cover and a bunch of instrumental stuff we wrote it was fun, kids seemed to dig it. It was nice to play a show. I wanna do it again, and want to play in front of more people. I HOPE

I leave for Chicago on Wednesday I'm super excited. It's going to be so much fun!!!!!

Saturday was the last day I'll see Ariel. Her Navy going away party and her birthday was then. I'm going to miss that girl so much.. I mean I already do but it hit me hard when I left Saturday from her house. I hope she keeps in touch with me some what. I don't think she completely hates me... I need to let it go.. but she's different and when I'm around her she can be as mean as she wants to me shit she could like beat the shit outta me if she really really wanted to.... and I would still be completely happy.. I'm insane......... but that's the way I have felt bout that girl since before I talked to her.. it's a completely different feeling that I wish I could shake off.. but It just wont fade away.. maybe one day... don't know but I'm only safe in dreams.. IT BLOWS.. I really don't wanna feel this way forever bout her.. it' not right at all.
whatever I'm only human at least I don't obsess or anything just care a lot and with I didn't hope she makes her happy. I know it will be over in the next 2 weeks... it wont last


This is my JOB

Today Kyle and I went to the beach. I wanted to go so bad. We woke up to awesome diabetic friendly pancakes as well :) They were also blueberry.
So we went to Clearwater beach today... not my favorite beach ever... but it got the job done. SO MANY FOREIGN PEOPLE WERE THERE THOUGH! sooooooo many but it's okay we till found a hot spot. So I used 100 proof neutrogena sunscreen but I guess I didn't rub it in well enough.... yeah I have blotches of of red all over me.. and it hurts like a bitch... and the tattoos on the back of my leg got burned I hope it doesn't fade them. O well I'll just get them redone, there on my skin for a reason. That's what I get o well hopefully it will give me some color. I got to read some of my book and I love just observing people, there so interesting... Like there were these kids.. a boy and a girl.. they were trying to get this other girl in the water.. the two girls had to be like early high school years or middle school... but the one girl just wanted to get in the water to talk and the boy and girl wanted to play they were jumping off each others shoulders.. but I think the one girl that didn't want to get into the water liked the boy.. and the one girl asked him bout it.. he was like do you think I like every girl I talked to.. and she got sad... it was really weird... but I remember times like that with people back when I was younger.. it's just weird to witness it when you get older...
So I think my brother is staying around for a few days... he needs it my dad is nuts!!! lmao
Tuesday we are supposed to go up to Ichetucknee River to swim in the springs I so can't wait. It's going to be Kyle, Kayla, Ash, Karli, whoever Ash brings and myself. It's going to be a lot of fun. I love doing weird nature stuff. It's relaxing for some reason, and it's better than just spending money on weird things that don't matter....



So as of today I have 9 days till I go to Chicago :)
34 days till I can quit Chick-Fil-A for good
37 days till I go to Texas with Kelly for Sergeant Major Academy
50 days till I turn 20
and 66 day's till I step foot for Basic Training for the United States Army

One Year

Today's one year since my best friend Travis passed away. I can't believe it has been 365 day's since he was taken from this world. His mom put it in good words though. She said a friend of her's told her not to think of today as the day he died, more of the day of his spirit's birthday. I think that's a finer way to see today as. Just a celebration and a day to be glad we knew who he was. Some one else said "Travis I'm not crying for you, I'm crying for me" that is so true as well. When I cry because of Travis I know that's not what he wants, but it makes me feel a little better, more real. It sucks I graduated high school and then the next day I get a phone call that one of my best friends is dead. I wonder if that was a sign from the higher power, (whoever or whatever it is) that I'm in the real world now, and this is one of many in my life. It's weird and kinda cruel how life and emotions work here on Earth. Travis was such a unique and very talented individual. He was really his own kind. I'm so lucky to know and had become such close friends with him. He was an amazing musician to work with, and it was a blast playing in a band with him. He became a brother to me, when we would hang out he was such a goof. Now I understand why they say the good die young. He was ahead of his time, and honestly had his own style going. I wonder what else he would have surprised us with. He would have made it big, but in life everything goes for some reason weather there is an answer for it or not. I learned so much from this kid, and he defiantly was a huge shape up in my life. I wouldn't be who I am today if I had never met him. I play my instrument's everyday and still try to learn more and more.
I'm gonna go visit him today, I know he's always with me, well all of us honestly.. It's crazy I'll get in my car and I can see him in my peripheral vision in my back seat just chilling. I think he protects all of us from his mistake. It's also crazy cause the night before his funeral he came in my dream and told me not to come. He said he didn't want me to go there, he just wanted me to play some guitar and just chill like any normal day. He told me not to be all sad and that he's here all the time. It was crazy but yeah.

Wear your seat belts kids!!!!











No One understands that tattoo unless they were in the band or a fan


RIP Travis Kyle Martin - Fly Free - I love you for ever